I don't think that you ever stop worrying as a mom. When Lyla first came home, I was worried that she wasn't eating enough, and that she was changed enough, and to make sure she was put to sleep on her back. I remember if she went 2 hours without waking up I would spring out of bed, right to her cribside, to be sure she was still breathing. And now, 2 years later, I still do this.
Go figure, my kiddo can finally sleep through the night, and instead of enjoying the 8 hours I've been craving since pregnancy, I'm awake. During the night I always pause to make sure her monitor is loud enough to hear. I worry that she may finally discover how to climb out of bed, or accidentally get wrapped up in her sheets and blankets. Being a mother is terrifying!!
While preparing for out wedding and honeymoon, I discovered that I'm one of those routine-moms while writing out Lyla's daily foods and activities for our sitters. I think I gave at least 5 food options for every mealtime, noted her favorite books, songs, cuddly things, etc. And mind you, it's her aunt and grandmother who she will be staying with - people who I'm sure know these things. But nevertheless, I wrote them down.
I cannot wait till I hear that small cry come over the monitor every morning so I can go in and give her a big smooch, and listen to her point out different things around her room: "look mommy, those my creams and powders for my bum!" ...that's one of my favorites. I hope I can find some time to relax and enjoy Cancun, because I know I'm going to be anxious to get home and see my squishy <3
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