I'm not sure if it's because Spring is soon ahead, but I'm starting to feel better about living here. I've began applying for massage jobs at my gym and a spa on the Cape, and even if they don't work out, just the possibility keeps my head up; it also feels pretty good to have my resume together and to get out there and just apply. I also started taking Lyla to story time at our town's library, so that gives us something to do once a week and allows Lyla to play with other kids while I can have some "grown up talk" with other moms. And, I'm finally starting to get the hang of where I'm going around here. Normally, Eric drives most places and I don't pay much attention to the directions. But I've taken initiative to drive more places on my own to learn the ins and outs of this little town and it's surrounding areas. And yes, I'm even becoming less afraid of the formerly dreaded GPS. So all those things combined have made me feel a bit more comfortable and "at home".
However, I'm sure my mood will take a turn for the worse next week when Eric returns to work full time for the first time since late Septmeber. Even now I find myself counting the hours until he's home from working on the apartment or back from the gym; what am I going to do in this cold weather when he's gone for over 8 hours a day? Yikes. It's definitely hard having your husband be your only real friend where you're living, but hopefully something more will come from these story time meetings and new-found road trips. Is it so hard to find someone my age who is married, or has a child, or doesn't want to drink or get high all the time? I suppose this is one of the negative aspects of having children so young - it's hard to connect with people your own age. The concept of "making friends" at nearly 23 years old is just odd. I'm thinking maybe I should put out a WANTED add: "Need a friend for gossip, exercise, parenting, and hanging out. If you feel you qualify for any or all of these necessities, please contact Loser-Lauren".
Wompwomp. Once again, I'm ready for Spring :)
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